Black brick in a red wall

Mrzi drogu, ne podnosi cigare, popit ponekad. Malo cudna, vise luda, nije uzor, al makar je zabavna. Zivotinje i priroda, putovanja. Instagram: zexxy_photography

13.12.2018.

Baby got back

Uradila nokte jucer pa valjda dosla sebi. Nakon toga na faks a nakon faksa odnijela momku da jede. Djelimicno jer je samo jabuke jeo citav dan a djelimicno jer sam bila grozno raspolozena i da bih bolje mogla disati odgurnula sam njega od sebe. Msm emotivno ne fizicki hahaha. Ali ispade da je ta pasta iz montane bila jako vazna njemu haha. Tj gesta. I drago mi je i ne zalim ni sekunde sto je sve islo ludo kako je islo. Na poslu je imao macku tako da je to win win. On je jeo ja sam se igrala s mackom, ma sve super. I danas smo se neplanski vidjeli i to je preslo u nase standardno gubljenje vremena na minusu. Svaki jebeni put se smrznemo ko picke. Jedva cekam proljece da napokon mogu ostati do kasno a da ne budem 2min pred smrt. Jbt 5 ujutro a ja ne spavam. Citavo uzbudjenje oko nove godine i mog rodjendana mi ne da spavati. Pravim planove i ima puno svirki u gradu pa hocu da malo uzivam. Msm ipak ce se ispiti poloziti sami hahah jebat ih. Danas sam shvatila kako sam sretna kad sam sa njim. Ne radi nista posebno a opet me cini sretnom. Mada musko je to, sjebat ce on sve brzo hahaha. Al hajd valja uzivat dok se moze, kad ne mogne idemo dalje hahah.

09.12.2018.

Greske smrtnika - queen of disaster

Youre the king and baby, im the queen of disaster, disaster. GLavna odlika strijelca je da voli slobodu. I cim se nadje u nekoj situaciji gdje osjeti da ne zeli biti on bjezi i ako ne moze, unistava sve pred sobom samo da izadje iz te situacije. Ali nikad da odem od momka koji mi se svidja jako jako puno jer me voli previse. Sta se sad desava sa mnom ne znam ni sama. I plan je bio sjesti ovdje i izbaciti svoje moecije na papir ili ti ga ekran misleci da cu plakati. Pa zasto onda sjedim vodje potpuno smirena i malo zbunjena? Nisam ocekivala da cu zaista osjetiti olaksanje jer sam ga blokirala svugdje. Ocekivala sam da necu izdrzati ni 5 min bez njega. I istina je pogledam na mobitel ocekujuci njegovu poruku ali je nema. Dao mi je prostor da se smirim i vratim svojoj slobodi. Kao da mi je on uzeo u pm nez ni ja. I zamolio me je da se vratim. Cekat ce kaze. Zasto? Zasto se toliko vezao. Kontam ja da sam nekad slatka i mozda to sto sam drugacija od ostalih cura (zajebana do bola) njemu pase, ali nit sam kakva bomba nit ljepotica nit bogatasica. Sta je u meni vidio ni sama ne znam. Ali bojim se da je sve to prolazno jer sam drugacija od drugih i zajebajem ga a mozda kad se ja smirim on me vise nece htjeti i ja sad ko picka stitim srce il nesto msm neam pojma. I hocu nekad da mu pokazem ovo. Ali sta sad? Sta kad sam hladna postala. I dalje mislim sve ono samo ne osjecam to. I dalje mi je prelijep i prefin, ali sada to dolazi iz mozga ne iz srca. Sta da radim? Ne znam. Ne znam sta osjecam. Mislila sam nakon sto ga blokiram da cu zasigurno plakati i samo misliti na njega. Ali osjecam se dobro. On se sigurno osjeca lose...ali zasto sam ja okej u pm aaah. Citala sam stare postove o njemu. I nista. Ni da i oci zasuze. Jel to jer znam da me ceka? Mozda ce i cekati sedmicu ali sta onda? Eh da makar znam sta da radim. Nekome je ovo jednostavno. Meni je sve komplikovano. Jebo ovo, ako ne mogu da se odlucim za prelijepog, prefinom momka kako sam za one bivse rugobe koji su me tretirali kao sranje. I eto ima ti tu nesto u tome sto kazu svi padaju na los tretman. Ma nez, volim ja ovog sadasnjeg bas ovakav kakav jeste. U meni je problem.

05.12.2018.

Its you, its you, its all for you.

Koliko god on savrsen bio ipak je musko. Nije to ni bistro ni racionalno. Ali vadi ga sto je emotivan. Kako lijepo izgleda kad place. Zamisli najljepse oci na svijetu da gledaju u tebe crvene i pune boli samo za tobom. Gleda te i kao da u tebi vidi citav svijet...kako se rusi. Dok te grli, grli tako jako kao da odlazis bez nade za povratkom. I mozda sam i ja kriva, igrajuci koje kakve igre sa njim ali svejedno njegova reakcija je uvijek iskrena. I to je ono sto mi ne da da se igram do te mjere da ide kuci misleci da sam ga ostavila. Svjestan je i situacije u kojoj se nalazi, kaze da je spreman, ali znam da nije. Ja, koja ima iskustva sa izazovima u zivotu ne mogu reci da sam spremna krenuti u zivot sama. I shvatam i sto zeli nekog da je uvijek tu. I biti cu. To sam vec rekla nebitno u vezi ili ne. Tu sam za njega. Jbt kako mogu gledati u nekoga i samo misliti kako je perfektan. Kontam svratiti do njega sutra da ga iznenadim. Ne znam, lijena sam hahah. Nedostaje mi a vidjeli smo se prije par sati. U njemu ima skoro podijeljenih licnosti ko u meni. Kad ga tek vidim pun je samopouzdanja, nasmijan i sredjen. Kad mu ne lomim srce onda je brizan i pun ljubavi. Kada mu lomim srce onda je povrijedjen, ludi, ljut, tuzan...i najbolje tuzan, ljut, zaljubljen i spreman da rizikuje sve za mene. Ta kombinacija mi najvise pase. Ne znam zasto. Volim izljudjivati momke ali nikad nisam nikog izludjivala kao njega. I nikad nisam vidjela ljepotu u momcima koji placu. Pa sto vidim u njemu, ne znam. Sve radi bas kako treba. Poruke ujutro i ored spavanje, ma poruke uvijek salje. Zna se i saliti a zna i biti sladak. Zna svirati i akusticnu i elektricnu gitaru. Zna i pjevati. Glas mu je predobar. Lud je. Ima svoje momente ludosti. Kazem drugarici u sali bog je napokon bacio andjela s neba ali onda skontam da je pali andjeo zapravo lucifer tj djavo hahaha. Rekoh ja vec djavo je to hahaha. Uskoro ce mu rodjendan. Sta da kupim? Sta da uradim? Imala sam jedan plan ali vec vidim probleme oko izvodjenja toga. Ma ne bi me trebalo biti ni briga, tek sam ga upoznala. Ali briga me je. Puno ljudi mu je zabilo noz u ledja. Zelim da vidi da nisu svi takvi. Koja ironija a ja sam prva cura koja ga pati i fizicki i psihicki i emotivno hahah. Ali ludost u svemu ovome je da ne odustajemo jedno od drugog. Danas se dosta puta naljutio koliko je bio povrijedjen i htio je da ode ali mu ja nisam dala. Ma i ja bih sebe ostavila. Ali jedina opcija da ode bila je da se potucemo i da on pobijedi hahaha. I tako nakon dosta bijesa i povrijedjenosti nekako je odlucio da ostane. Na moju srecu i srecu svih koji bi nas morali razdvajati hahaha. Vec je toliko puta bilo fizicke sile medju nama ali nikada iz zle namjere. Nego ono cekaj, ne idi, ustani s betona, slusaj vamo itd haha. Interesantno. Nisam ni znala da mozes primjenjivati silu ali iz ljubavi. Sve je tako cudno. Ah odoh leci. Ovo hvaljenje izmice kontroli, necu da ga ureknem hahah.

03.12.2018.

03.12.2018.

Im scared. Scared of losing something thats fully mine now. Hes scared of losing me too. But what if that fades away? Id hate it to fade away. Hes so in love with me. Hed do anything for me. And honestly....I think I feel the same. But we just met each other, wtf? Excuse me what the fuck? Hah hes so perfect. I wish nothing from him but to always stay this way. His every move is perfect. His reaction to everything is exactly what i want. His touch fucks me up big time but we wont tell him that 😂😂 he still thinks im immune to it hahaha hell no boi. We both just melt over each other, were so cute and annoying its fucking sickenning ahhaha. I wish he was taller. But am i gonna really bitch about that shit when everything he does is perfect? Hell no hahahah. Whats wrong with us? Ive never been liking anybody so fast..i cant say its love. Its not. But i really truly madly deeply care about him. Ko bi rekao da ce od jednostavnog cao i pogleda izaci ova ludost. Ko bi rekao da ce sve ici tako spontano ali tako planirano. This is insane. Kowalski, analysis. I cant stop talking about him. Hes just sooo.....hot, cute, cutest smile ever, eyes to die for, but i still like seeing him cry ahahha. Its honestly because i love his stenght when he holds me, when he takes control even when i push him away, but i also like him being fragile and taking refuge in me. I hope Ill be there when he needs me the most. I hope he wont push me away. I hope I wont let him push me away. I hope he stays in my hug until he falls asleep crying. No, this isnt one of my sick fantasies hahaha. I just want to be his rock. I know hell need it and i know ill be able to hold my emotions enough to look like i know what to do and how to "get over it". In fact i dont know how to get over it. You cant. You can just shove the pain in the back pocket of your heart. You wont see it and after some time youll get used to it bugging you when you sit. That is how you get over it. You just learn to live with it. See, i care so much about this guy...yet i make him cry. Day in and day out, he cries. But hes so beautiful when he cries. It hurts my heart greatly, but his eyes show so much pain and caring that its like a drug to me. And i hope that one day i can return the favour. Hope one day hell see i care. A lot. Too much. For fucks sake i just met him. I shouldnt be giving a fuck..we shouldnt be giving a fuck. Wtf? Why do we act like we have known each other for months...years? Anyways besides his green eyes and cute smile, i like every line on his face. And thats a problem ladies and gents. And i like his whole body...k to kill romance, his dick is...hell yeah hahaha. But he drives me nuts. On mene fizicki, ja njega psihicki hahahahah. He doesnt even go to gym or has muscles or anything but hes so perfect. Ah whats wrong with me? Hahaha. So we went out.. i legit didnt plan this whole im a hooker thing. It literally came to me in the moment it came out of my mouth hahhaa. And he was of course hurt by my lie. And somehow everything we did that day made perfect story to go with me claiming i sleep with guys for money hahhaa. This sounds much worse than it is haha. See i did it so well and was lying so god damn well, he believed it. And my acting was so crazy, like i went into tram through one door and ran out the other door. And i knew he saw me. He didnt habe enough time to leave and was bummed cuz i didnt hug him. How could i just tell him all this bullshit, hurt his feelings, hug him like nothing happened and leave? Hell no. If i didnt manage to run out of that tram in time id be pissed. So he saw me running out and decided to follow me. And he stalked me haha legit sneaked behind me the whole way. Hid behid cars to see where im going. Were both fucking crazy. So i didnt know what to do so i sat after some time. I couldnt see him cuz he hid but i knew he was behind me somewhere. And i didnt know what to do honestly. I could have knocked on somebodys foor but thats just not me ahaha thats too much...as if i know when to stop 😂. So i started going back and there he was. A guy in a black coat, green eyes looking at me in the dark sad and angry...confused? At that moment i thought to myself..what am i doing to him? How far am i ready to go and how much can he take? And im not saying how much can he take before he starts hating me and leaves. Im saying how much pain can his heart take? Am i killing him? No for real, im messed up. And him standing against the truck, his reality being: girl he loves sells her body for money because she cant survive...it hit me then that hes in actual pain. And i started to go back down but i had to return. And then i didnt know what to do cuz i was in pain too because i saw how angry he was. So i turned around and left. But i knew he wont go home. I knew he will either stand there or come after me. So i moved where he cant see me and waited for him. Jebem nas glupe u pm minus 5 vani a mi lomimo jedno drugom srca..thats ma bad haha. What a great guy he is. I just dont want this to end 😭😭. So he comes back. Then instead if me telling him yeah i was just lying, im an idiot, im sorry...i said well i went back in hopes youd leave cuz my client is waiting for me. Really zerina? Nisi cura fina. Da fuk? He was then 100% sure i wasnt fucking with him because i saw his anger. He wasnt perhaps pissed at me. He was pissed at the "circumstances". He found a girl he really liked and now she turned out to be a prostitute. Yo his reality was so fucked up and i didnt know how to fix it without him hating me. And i couldnt afford that. So instead of ending this like any normal person would ( normal person wouldnt even start) i went further into it. It got to that point where i had to remind myself this is all illusion or id even start believing it. And honestly it got very close to that in next few minutes. So hes like ill buy you. Ill be your client every night and well just sit and talk. That was such a pain to hear. I brushed it off by laughing and saying youll go broke in 2 weeks but i was in so much pain. Because i knew hes crazy enough to do that. So i declined. But it was much harder than that. I didnt know how to fix the situation yet. Why am i saying yet? At no point this night did i know how to fix this. There was no going back. Hed give his paycheck on me...to keep me from that kind of life. See even i sound like i believed it fuck hahaha. But hes soo good. I almost cried when he said that but i was thinking so hard how to fix this that i couldnt even cry. He started crying and i hugged him. I dont want to keep hurting him. I really dont. But i do want to feel these same feelings. And thats hard without pain. Happy hugs and sad hugs arent the same. Happy hugs dont make your body tingle and feel pain but also happiness. Its one of a kind experience. I would know, i fucking make em happen for a reason. Somewhere between me walking away from him and him crying was him walking away from me, very angry. Idk im losing the grip on what happened when. And then after cryig and hugging i told him not to cry, its the way life is n shit and he stopped amd got serious and very mature and distant with cool head. It surprised me. But yeah in thay situation...fuck novody would handle it better than him. Not even me. Id be in pieces..well im sure he was but he didnt show it...after crying hahaha. So we walked. Normal talk and me worrying, him making toughest decisions of life probably. To let me suffer making money or risk his own life just to spend few days with me before hes broke...cuz im a prostitute ya know ahha expensive one ahahha. And hes so amazing, so confusing, so honest in his feelings. He still wanted to be with me after all i told him. I have to admit i couldnt do the same. I dont think i even understand in how much pain im still. My heart still hurts. My brain cant shut off. I still smell like him. And i miss his hugs already wtf. I wont see him whole week. It sucks. Maybe ill sneak to his work to surprise him. Yeah thats a good idea. Hed like that. Id like that hahah. Anyways he accepts i need to do my "job" and he says bye and everything like its a normal job. And he wasnt crying. He wasnt angry. He sure wasnt happy but he came to terms with what was his new reality. And i turned to leave but i couldnt. Exactly because i saw he truly accepted it. And he would habe left home for the first time that night. And i knew hed cry his heat out and i just couldnt let that happen. Its too much. Story was too difficult. Too believable, too sad. So i returned and confused him. I didnt know how to break it to him. I thought hed be really really mad and leave. Fucking hell i cant afford this guy to leave, hes too good and i care about him. So i just said it hey this was all a joke. Last 2 hours are a lie. So many emotions went over his face amd he didnt even realise it. Confusion, anger, relief, ...love. And even happiness. He was happy he chose me yet i cant understand why. All i did was make him suffer and push him away. Lie. I lied. It was part of my game but i lied. It was too much. He started crying again. So many emotions just rushed through him at the same time. He said hes lucky. He started singing. Well then i knew hes gone crazy hahah. But he was happy for some reason. But i was happy too. I was happy he isnt angry anymore. And i was happy he isnt sad. Irony haha. I was hapoy he was he and i was i and he were next to each other. We give the best hugs. Yeah cuz that shit just goes well together. Then i was like...haahaha okay sad je ovo vise totalno ludilo, do kojih ja mjera znam otici to budale na everestu ne odu hahaha. So i tell him i actually am a prostitute and i really do need to go work. So hes like fine. He starts going home....see but i knew hed come back. I only did these things because i had great faith in him. So we part ways and i go to some dark alley. But hes right behind me. I know it. I feel it. So car was passing by and i moved and looked at him cuz i knew ill see those green crying eyes just looking at me in pain. He teared up. At this point i was telling myself bitch game is over why are you doing this again ffs. I think i just wanted to feel that painful hug one more time. Its different type of hug. You pour all your emotions into it. But his face too tho...isnt so beautiful. Pain love caring...soul. Its like hes painting his soul and his face is canvas. He cried. I wanted to wipe his tears away. To kiss him. But it was too cold and he was such a wreck. I didnt want to add one more thing to confuse him. I need to see him. Tomorrow. I hope i will. My heart is in pain too. All this was happening on minus 5 degrees and we were both shivering and frozen. We were a mess. But we were together so it didnt matter. It was after midnight, it was frozen and i had my prince next to me. Hell we were surrounded by graveyards and still hopefully haha didnt get possesed. Anyways, he dhad to pee so that was fun hahah he peed hahahaa. Why am i entertained by all this? Cant tell ya cuz idk. But i know that i care about him. His pain might be funny for first 5 minutes but then im in pain too. Again, all is well that ends well. We hugged, he kissed me on the cheek, both frozen and in love, we left home. He asked me to be in relationship with him. Now i can say hes my boyfriend. We have knkwn each other for only 18 days. Holy shit ahaha. But we clicked so well. Were already crazy about each other while others dont fall for each other in months. Idk. Maybe this will fade away. Maybe it will all be done very soon. But let me enjoy at least a bit with him. Hes all i need. I know its dumb thing to say but if hell always be caring like today, nit jist crying n shit but actually finding every opportunity to hug me on hold my hand. I hope ill get to meet his parents...maybe next week. And well cuddle and chill 😊 i hope fucker doesnt turn me on cuz thats what hes been doing the whole day today without even realising it ahhaha...deep down im pretty sure he knows it and that it was his goal but idk hahha. I need to go sleep. Or try. I have a bf to surprise tomorrow 😁

30.11.2018.

Just about one talented guy

Svira elektricnu gitaru. Svira je dobro. Uoija brzo. Vec je naucio dio Reginine pjesme odsvirati i odpjevati. Kao i drugih pjesama koje sam mu predlozila. Zar moze da bude perfektan? Zar moze biti neko savrsen? Neko bez mane? Neko ko je zaparavo vrijedan mog vremena i truda? Mlzda i ima mane, neke iz proslosti na koje necu da se obazirem. Ali i dalje sada izgleda perfektan. Toliko je dobar da iskreno mislim da je djavo. Ono dobar je u svakom smislu a nisam mislila da to postoji. Nije nikad bio ruzan ni debeo. Uvijek je bio fit i lijep. Nije uvijek bio cvjecka ko sada. Bio je pravo nestasan ali pokusavam da ne osudjujem po proslosti. Al otici ce ovo sve u kurac vidim ja vec. Nema nikakvih jasnih naznaka osim da je predobar. A ja u to ne vjerujem. Ma ko zna. Mozda se i meni posrecilo. Al kuku njemu hahhaah.

29.11.2018.

Davor Ebner ili novi momak?

Balkansku scenu roka i popa zamijenila su dvojica bradonja. Aka Jala i Buba. I nek su oni uspjesni ali isprase mozgove ljubiteljima prave muzike a ne 99% autotuna. Ma pusti to, jucer sam vidjela Davora Ebnera, pkevaca iz Regine. I moram priznati da ga ne bih prepozala da danima prije toga nisam slusala njihove novije pjesme i citala o njima. Ostario je, a bio je i bolestan cini mi se pa me nista ne cudi. I dalje ima upecatljive modro plave oci. Samo izgledao je umorno. I trebalo mi je iskreno dugo da skontam sto mi je izgledao poznato. Ali crta lica i oci jednostavno ne varaju. Cak sam vise bila sigurna da je on kad me je gledao dugo i pomalo zacudjeno jer je skontao da sam ga prepoznala...ili je mislio jao sto ova budala gleda u mene ahahah. A uzasno je nevjerovatno da ga sretnem sad nakon ..3 godine. Sad kad izlazim s nekim ko lici na njega. Mora da ima neki razlog sto se sve ovo desava, ne vjerujem ja u ovolike slucajnosti. Slucajno upoznam ovog momka, slucajno mu se svidim, slucajno mi se svidi, slucajno lici na Davora Ebnera, slucajno sretnem Davora, slucajno je momku stalo do mene, slucajno je meni do njega. Jel ja izgledam ko neko ko ce otici momku S KOJIM NISAM NI U VEZI na posao samo na dvije min da ga vidim? Ne izgledam. Ali to sam uradila hahah. Nikad ne dopustim momku pa plati na dejtu. To svi znaju. Ali njemu sam dopustila. Zasto? Ne znam okej? ahahah. I sama se to pitam. I ima stvari o njemu koje volim....ma koga lazem, tesko mu je naci manu. Samo se nadam da to nije privremeno dobro. WHo is he? Who is the guy with enough balls to get hurt by me over and over again and still be happy and give me love? Who is he? Only person I cant understand. Ono ko Edward iz Twilighta mogao svima citati misli osim Belli. Eh isto sranje. Ne mogu ga razumjeti i bojim se da nikada necu moci. Iznenadio me je cekajuci me u gradu gdje je znao da cu biti, mislis da me je pitao? nope. Ja protestujem u porukama a on vec ispred mene. Who is this guy? What the fuck? Eto dok citate poslusajte Regininu pjesmu Za one stare dane. Imaju bas super nove pjesme. Ma ne kontam stvarno kako me ovaj lik voli...to je mozda jaka rijec ali lud je za mnom. Jel to mazohista ili sta jer ja ga samo mucim haahha. Bukvalno 100 put na dan se pitam ko je on i sta nije u redu sa njim ahaha. Zasto me trpi? Zasto me tako dobro grli? Zasto i kad dodjem kuci i pesvucem se jos mirisem na njega i ne protestujem ni sekunde. Wtf? Jel to jer je vodolija? Znam da se strijelci i vodolije super slazu. Msm muka mi je vise od lavova haahah. Too proud to admit their mistakes. Too ignorant to fix them. 4 mjeseca sam bila bez momka. Quite funny, nikad ne bih rekla da cu tako brzo biti spremna za drugog. Ali opet razumijem i sto jesam, last break up was nasty for a long time and i was unhappy for some time in that relatioship. Sigurno cu zazaliti sve ovo sto pisem. Im sure his craziness for me will fade away with time. And i wont like that. Ufff. Idemo sad Regina - Vodim te na jedno mjesto. He cried to that song. As mucha as i want men to be strong for themselves i like seeing them weak for me. Sakrij se ispod mojih krila vodim te na jedno mjesto...

20.11.2018.

Is it love or is it lust?

How do you differentiate love from lust? I met this hot guy who gives the best hugs and when i look at him my heat starts beating faster. Dont know him enough to be in love but i find myself thinking about him all the time. Hes super hot but im not eager to fuck him, im eager to be with him. Isnt that what makes it love and not lust? Maybe I am feeling both? But then again, Ive only known him for a few days. I feel like i wanna get lost in his arms, breathing in his rich parfume but im afraid he still wouldnt love me. Im afraid of being with somebody who doesnt love me. Afraid of losing another person i cared for. And i know he is too. And i know hes much more than a guy who only cares about money or sex. Hes a really passionate guy. An editior, a musician, animal lover. Hes everything i want and more. An that is why i am afraid of falling for him, im afraid of losing him....and i dont even have him.

20.11.2018.

Hot new bf :O

Kako naslov i sam govori... Nakon 4 mjeseca trazenja i samoce, nadje momak mene. Iskreno nikad nisam imala ljepseg i finijeg momka. Tj trenutno se zabavljamo tako je najbolje objasniti, ali on zeli vezu mada sam ja ta koja ga tjera da ceka. Htio me je voditi u Park Princeva ali je tek dan prije trazio rezervaciju i oni nisu imali mjesta. Bio je razocaran a ja u sebi mislim im more of a McDonalds kinda girl ahaah. He has like 200km cashmere coat and we all know sis loves her some fancy coats ahahah. His dick tho....clap clap ahahaha. I just saw some outlines but since he wasnt even hard i was like for fucks sake that dick would make me stay in bed for a week ahahaha. Id be wreckt ahaha. Other than that, Ive never had a guy literally give up everything for me. Well....my American ex did give up meat...and one before him did give up jerking off for some time....ok thats not the point hahaha. This is first guy Im super attracted to. He dresses well!!!! Coats, suits, nice sweaters. And his eyes....oh ma gahd, they draw me in so much, so pretty. Like literally I like everything about him. His looks have no flaw. Ive never had such a guy go crazy about me. And I still dont know what he likes about me. I showed him many times what a bitch I am, I pushed him away, I doubted him, and he did everything I asked. Also he opened up to me right away, told me things he didnt tell anybody and also some painfull things. Idk why ppl tell me shit ahah. But im glad he did. We actually didnt meet on some dating site, we met randomly when i was going back home with a friend, he was with his friend and our friends knew each other so we kinda liked each other since the moment we shook hands. it wads wierd, he told me i gave him the look...i was completely oblivious to this hahah. We also speak in english all the time tho hes bosnian guy. We watch same things, listen to same songs, our zodiac signs say were perfect for each other. But ya know me, i got burned before listening to horoscope ahahah. He likes animals and tho he says he wouldnt give uo meat i think he would if i asked...thing is tho, i dont think ill ask. Ill lead by example and well see what happens. If he does everything else to make me happy, meat wont matter honestly. He is needy too, well not really, but some things just arent my cup of tea. Hes newspaper editor and i think thats so cool. Im afraid Im already catching feelings for him. And yes, its too early for that.

30.09.2018.

Putovanje U Budvu

Za prvi maj sam isla u Budvu. Bilo je to veoma uzbudljivo putovanje sa rajom iz Lets Go-a i sa mamom naravno. U Crnoj Gori smo bili 2 dana i u Hrvatskoj jedan, ali danas cu pricati samo o Budvi. Nakon smjestaja u veoma lijep hotel i kratkog odmora krenule smo u grupnu turu Budvom. Obisli smo bitna mjesta kao sto su Citadela, plaze, Balerinu koja plese, tvrdjavu itd. Nakon toga smo mama i ja nastavile obilazak grada. Naravno, na moje insistiranje da bih uslikala kul fotke otisle smo na plazu "Ričardova glava" ( tako mi se tadasnji momak zvao tako da je meni bilo urnebesno smijesno) i tu smo nasle par manjih pecina za super slike od kojih cu objaviti neke. Vecinu dana smo setale i uzivale u divnim, ali naraveno skupim restoranima. Navecer smo bile na nekom dj koncertu i otisle na picu. Tu sam pricala (vise svadjala) s tadasnjim momkom, i msm da je putovanje u Budvu sa mene licno bio kraj veze iako smo raskinuli tek 2 dana kasnije kad sam bukvalno usla u Bosnu. Nakon toga smo se pomirili hajd to je prica za drugog posta ahaha. I tako je prosla prva noc u Budvi. Nastavak uskoro. Tu je slika iz jedne od tih manjih pecina, ima mnogo vecih ali u te ne mozes uci jer su u vodi.

29.09.2018.

Another sad day

Danas sam shvatila kako ne mogu da budem s nekim ko ima jako lose zube. Mislim dosta mi je jedan bivsi s jako losim zubima bio. Nakon njega bivsi je imao super zube i bukvalno hvalila sam mu osmijeh svakom prilikom. And I miss that. A ovaj lik koji mi se svidja osim nekih stvari koje su mi sulude i van veze da radis npr trosis vrijeme na neku curu iz brazila i jos ti ona nista i ne salje ali pricas sa njom satima na telefon, lik ima ruzne zube. Jos pije puno kafe a tacno bih pivratila kad bi ga poljubila hahaha. I ne nosi dobru odjecu, hajd ne mora biti markirano ali mora dobro izgledati. I jednostavno ne mogu biti power couple s tom osobom. Volim dobar osjecaj koji dobra odjeca daje, volim putovanja, volim sav taj power couple look. I sta sad ja da radiiim? Ne mogu da nadjem nekog ravnog sebi. Nekog ko uziva u istim stvarima i ponasa se zrelo. Msm nisu ovo losi momci, ali nisu za mene. Msm da je vrijeme da se bacim na ucenje i posao na zalosttt. Izgleda da nista od novog momka jer dolazi zima a tad nemam volje za zivotom.


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